Planning the your future is possibly the most scary and frustrating thing an adult has to go through.
Like seriously fuck all this bad feelings.
HERE ARE MY OPTIONS:
OPTION A: Come June quit both the jobs i worked so hard to get. And seriously pack up my life that I worked so hard to create in Denton and move to Austin. Whats wrong with living in Austin? oh, living in the ACL would not suck too terribly, however it would be under my parents roof, rent free. Oh yeah it starting to sound great on paper. totally. Here’s the big issue with me moving in with my parents… They have no clue about my sex life, my tattoos, my daily use of marijuana for my depression.
OPTION B: Come June, move into a “cheap” one bedroom apartment with Cooper , go back to school and figure my life out.
The problem that I am facing is the money. I was forced out of my job I spent 6 years working for. It was shitty, however I am ok I have two new jobs. However, due to the fact I am still facing charges on my dwi I have had to put my teaching position on hold. So I am back to the world of retail it is not too bad. I work with chill people. But I took A HUGE pay cut.
I am at a loss. I cried my entire way home from Ft Worth because I am terrified of leaving a place I call home, my friends, my family.. I lived in Austin once, fucking hated it. The people there suck. So stuck up. Everything is over priced and douchey.
At this point I do not know which option would bring me the most satisfaction. I am scared. I do not want to leave, I want to be on my own. In a city I adore.
this sucks, sucks so bad.